cleanse this mess

Bottled up emotions,
Spilling from my pores.
Screaming to get out.
Much stronger than before.

So easy it was to love,
The one I now despise.
But how do you forget,
Or get over the pain and lies?

I am tired of fighting the anger,
That you bring upon my chest.
I just want to fully let you go.
And cleanse myself of this mess.

I hate the way you rolled your eyes,
And belittled my hopes and dreams.
I hate the way you reeled me in.
And tore my heart’s every seam.

I hate the way I trusted you,
To mend my broken heart.
I hate the way you made me feel,
Even from the very start.

I hate the way I was dumb enough,
To believe you’d one day see,
That all I wanted you to do,
Was whole-heartedly love me.

I hate the way I needed you,
Like an addict needs cocaine,
Taking anything I could from you,
Your emotions to fill my veins..

I hate the way I cried over you,
After I saw who you really were.
And tried to piece us back together,
When all along you were with her.

I hate the way I hate you,
Because even that gives you control,
And I will not be able to fully move on,
Until you have not control at all.

Too many tears have been shed,
Over the one who couldn’t see.
That all I needed you to do,
Was to accept me for me.

I am tired of fighting the anger,
That you bring upon my chest.
I just want to fully let you go.
And cleanse myself of this mess.